The day is approaching

The day of my aunt's memorial is approaching. I feel mostly angry at the thought that she is no longer in my life. She was a special person and woman. I will sing at her memorial and hopefully not cry during the song. I am angry because, I truly feel her death could have been avoided. She went to doctors over and over again and they told her that her issues were caused by crohns. She was suddenly diagnosed with Stage IV cancer and given 3 months to live. She had fought with crohns for so long that I guess the wind had been taken out of her sails.I sat in her hospital room when her attending physician told her that the type of cancer she had was very,very bad and she only recommended hospice care. It made me so angry and still does. No one ever requested or gave her a biopsy in all the doctor visits she had had over the years. Had they done this a long,long time ago, they would have seen that she had cancer.She could have been treated and had her life extended. If you want to live, it is important that you be really informed and not take what doctors tell you always at face value. Sometimes you have to research on your own to know what questions to ask, because you may have a much shorter life if you trust in some people wholeheartedly. The world feels empty without her here. I wish I was with her,but know there are things I still need to do in this life like perform more and more original music. Why do the good always get taken away? It makes me so angry and sad. I am grateful that my mother is still alive. I have my brother and sister and my boyfriend.