The day is approaching

The day of my aunt's memorial is approaching. I feel mostly angry at the thought that she is no longer in my life. She was a special person and woman. I will sing at her memorial and hopefully not cry during the song. I am angry because, I truly feel her death could have been avoided. She went to doctors over and over again and they told her that her issues were caused by crohns. She was suddenly diagnosed with Stage IV cancer and given 3 months to live. She had fought with crohns for so long that I guess the wind had been taken out of her sails.I sat in her hospital room when her attending physician told her that the type of cancer she had was very,very bad and she only recommended hospice care. It made me so angry and still does. No one ever requested or gave her a biopsy in all the doctor visits she had had over the years. Had they done this a long,long time ago, they would have seen that she had cancer.She could have been treated and had her life extended. If you want to live, it is important that you be really informed and not take what doctors tell you always at face value. Sometimes you have to research on your own to know what questions to ask, because you may have a much shorter life if you trust in some people wholeheartedly. The world feels empty without her here. I wish I was with her,but know there are things I still need to do in this life like perform more and more original music. Why do the good always get taken away? It makes me so angry and sad. I am grateful that my mother is still alive. I have my brother and sister and my boyfriend.

Cancer! I hate you!

Bah Humbug

One of my favorite singers is dying of Cancer too!!!!!!!!!!! I am so angry.
Way too many people have died of cancer. Poor Etta. Etta James that is .

Goodbye Aunt Mary

My aunt died of cancer today. She was the kindest person. She always listened no matter what. God knows I don't have her patience. lol. I miss her so much already. I am very angry that she is gone. The world feels empty when someone so good is taken so early. I am grateful that I went to see her before she died. It is still very shocking. I hope I can try to be half the person she was.

Aunt Mary's Tribute

When it rains it pours and then there is sunshine!

A close relative is terminally ill now with cancer. I went to see her in Alabama. They have brought her home for hospice care. I love her so much. It is so much to bear just seeing her in this situation. This is a very trying time. On my flight back to NYC, I was lucky enough to sit next to an actor whose work I have always admired. Seeing my ill relative and dealing with some drama that ensued with another relative left me crying in the airport bathroom as I waited to board the plane. My face must have been tearworn as opposed to weatherworn. He strolled down the aisle as charismatic as he always is in his movies. What a wonderful surprise. It was a pleasure to speak to him and remember why I sing. It was nice to speak to someone about what we live for, to express ourselves. It was perfect timing to have met him that evening. I am preparing to go back into the studio and record more music. I am moving forward. Life and those you love can be quickly taken away. You better do what you love now.

My singing mentor wasn't feeling well either, so I came to see her when I got back to New York. She gave me some more pointers. I am grateful.