Belief

Believing in yourself is so important. But sometimes people in your life can reaffirm your strengths. I am grateful for the good in the world. Let your positive beliefs about yourself and others enlighten your live and the lives of others.

When it rains it pours and then there is sunshine!

A close relative is terminally ill now with cancer. I went to see her in Alabama. They have brought her home for hospice care. I love her so much. It is so much to bear just seeing her in this situation. This is a very trying time. On my flight back to NYC, I was lucky enough to sit next to an actor whose work I have always admired. Seeing my ill relative and dealing with some drama that ensued with another relative left me crying in the airport bathroom as I waited to board the plane. My face must have been tearworn as opposed to weatherworn. He strolled down the aisle as charismatic as he always is in his movies. What a wonderful surprise. It was a pleasure to speak to him and remember why I sing. It was nice to speak to someone about what we live for, to express ourselves. It was perfect timing to have met him that evening. I am preparing to go back into the studio and record more music. I am moving forward. Life and those you love can be quickly taken away. You better do what you love now.

My singing mentor wasn't feeling well either, so I came to see her when I got back to New York. She gave me some more pointers. I am grateful.

At Last

So, It is time for the next show. I am putting together a set list. I may just do covers until the next album is recorded. There are so many great songs. I am still writing more songs like every singer should do. It is a muscle.

I am going to see one of my friends.He always inspires me. Have a Good Night and I hope that you are enjoying your time.

Changes

All my life experiences change my outlook and how I relate to life and people. The weird thing is his cruelty has inspired me even more. He thinks we musicians should get "real jobs". Anyone that downs you or your passions is not truly living. I call it emotional meat that gets added to my bones. I sing songs with a different timber and color. I don't know if you ever are able to forget or stop completely loving someone.

I went to support some friends in the circle I call it. It is either people I have worked with or friends of musicians that I respect. Musicians that are the full package. Good people who also happen to be great musicians.

The gig was great. It was at Barnes and Noble. I only wish I could have heard his, Tomas's, vocals more. Danny Sadownick played with his soul.His eyes closed as he got into the style of Tomas. The mic was not hot enough,because he was standing up playing his guitar and he is so tall. But you could hear that his songs are very strong and that the band is tight. There were also other performers like Allan Harris He was so smooth like Nat King Cole. He was clean in the black,southern since of the word. Very polished indeed. Every song was beautiful. When you see any of my peers, you will not have missed a minute of your life. They are the cream of the crop. If you like music. Support these guys and of course me. :)

Since when is my next show.I am paying off an incredible amount of debt and in light of the economy, saving what I can. Changes in my life need to be made. I wish I was financially capable of making all of them I want to right now,but it will work out. It has to work out. It costs money to pay my musicians. They have bills like I do.

I am writing new material from these experiences, from what I see,and from what I observer others' experiencing. It is a shedding if you will.I have been going to jam session to stay vocally active. Use it or lose it. I am meeting more great musicians and people that support art.

Let the good times roll, right Georgia.

I miss the way it was, but know it has to be different. "Life is Change," someone once told me. Sometimes change hurts, just like working out,just like a woman giving birth.

NY Summer Streets

NY Summer Streets was another experience. We arrived early for our sound check like we were asked to, but we did not actually have it until like 2 minutes before our set. There were all of these joggers and cyclists getting a move on. Petrosino square is getting a serious makeover so the small stage was set up on Cleveland Street. The organizer was very gracious. It was nice to meet him in person.We attracted a nice crowd. Jeff and Jeff for so calm which was calming for me. I always get nervous. It is partly excitement.We did like 5 songs. People seemed to like Proud Freak the most and Crazy. I love doing that. Boy can I relate to it. :) My voice was drier than normal. I should have stretched my chords that morning, but each show is always different. You just keep moving and doing what you know. It is all you can do. If you do not do what you love, a part of you begins to die. So singing was like oxygen for me. The most pure you can find.

I am Grateful

Not one day goes by that I am not grateful for resigning from an extremely hostile work environment. It was always made very clear to me in overt and subtle ways how unwelcome I was. If anyone has mistreated you, you do not deserve to be harassed(sexually/verbally/or in an other form). You do not have to be subjected to racism or the cruelty of the cut throat. No one has the right to speak to you as if you are not human.No bonus or huge salary is worth spiritual death.


This life is very short. I chose to be around people that are positive. I chose to be around people that appreciate me and that are trustworthy. I am much happier. I have become Buddhist and my friends are good people. I look forward to being able to sing again at night. All in due time. I am still alive and kicking.

I sent my friend Thom Loubet some mailing labels for college campus bookers. He will put them to good use.